IT'S FRIDAY!!!! GLORIOUS GLORIOUS FRIDAY!!! I am so excited that it's the weekend and I can relax and de-stress. The weather is BEAUTIFUL... ok it's warmer at least.
I went to my pdoc on Wednesday. My anti-d was doubled. My mom thinks I'm on too high of a dose *rolls eyes*... I love how much she truly doesn't get. I think it is sweet that she says she wants me to talk to her if I ever feel down and such... but that's so hard to do when she just wants to "fix" my problems instead of listen and say I can see your going through a hard time. She also doesn't seem to understand that her little girl could be going through this depression crap. I feel like my emotions and problems are downplayed by her or will bring her down in the dumps, ya know?
I am really craving Lil Mexico food!!... Thank goodness that I am not home and able to maul food. I love how much more control over my food, my cleaning habits (I'm such a nerd, I enjoy cleaning), my life in general I seem to have while at college. I'm so glad that I haven't been over eating. Also my body is feeling fantastic since I'm back to exercising daily, hopefully my body will show some improvement on the scale soon.
I'm still avoiding walking over to the college counseling center. I've been told by a couple people I should go back... but I just do not know yet. There are days I feel productive and that I can handle going to classes... but there are other days that I just run back to my room after classes because of anxiety or stay in bed and miss a class because of depression. Mental Illness SUCKS... don't let anyone tell you any different k. *wink*
Time is just going by way too fast. It seems life is just so rushed... I wish I could really live it. Yet if I slow down, I end up feeling suicidal. So busy it shall be...
Off to clean and exercise. Take care and enjoy your weekend!
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